Selfie: Performance Task

For this performance task, I struggled a lot with coming up with an idea on what I wanted to showcase. I was having "artist's block" and I kept coming up blank. I finally realized that I was putting so much unnecessary thought into this when it was so simple. Our task was to take two selfies, each demonstrating different sides to us. When looking at my different sides, I realized that I actually had many and I wasn't just "2 faced". For this performance task I decided to capture the versions of me that stuck out the most especially coming closer to the end of the semester. In the first photo I wanted to capture the version of myself that comes through the most or that I show most often with my friends and peers. I tend to be very friendly and outgoing, kind, super hyper, carefree, bubbly and funny. I speak my mind, very loudly for that matter and I have this energy that can keep me going for hours. I enjoy my time with others and have fun as opposed to worrying about something else that would take up my time. This side of me is cheerful and tries to think positively (although we all know I do my fair share of complaining). It's a side of me that I like to portray to the world. I keep this facade up to distract everyone from what the other side of me, that's represented in the second photo, shows. The other side of me on the other hand is quite the opposite. This side of me stresses all night long about school or about other things going on in my life. This side has anxiety like no other, over things that seem so small and simple to others. When I have this side of me on, I wear it. I don't want to talk to anyone, I'm cold, mean, and muted. These two sides of me contrast so often it's hard to actually deal with it because I stress over grades and other problems but at the same time, my more "fun" side doesn't want to showcase that or even think about it, they battle to see who gets to be presented that day and I don't want to be seen as a giant bundle of stress and tension or someone who is upset a lot of the time. I portrayed this in the photo by dimming the lights to represent my mood and attitude, it represents how I feel really accurately, it's dull, dim, and gloomy, I even had the dead look on my face that sometimes comes through. I don't want people to get that impression of me so the fun side is who I choose to present myself as. I'd much rather keep it all in like the restrained and private side than mix them and let other people view me for who I really am, only letting close friends and family know in on it. There's always two sides to a story, and here's just two of mine.